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An update

I have officially been on my last compulsory lecture. In fact, it starts to get a few weeks ago already, and if we look away from the exam info and three hours subject next Monday, I have officially been on my last lecture period. It feels a little good, a little scary, a bit liberating, slightly numbing. My days now looks like this out, away clock rings at nine, I get up sometime between nine and half past nine, have breakfast, read the syllabus or writing notes to the course, until I notice that the concentration is gone, and when I take a break and do something else until I can concentrate again I spend days in cozy pants and cuddly sweater, drinking tea from the large cup of tea, listening to music ( this , for example) and wait for it to have been enough hours for me to put my school work without feeling conscience, and at night I see the Skins or the House season 5 season 7, or read something that is not reading in bed before I fall asleep sometime between twelve and one. If it's Tuesday or Thursday, I work at night, og hvis det er mandag, onsdag eller fredag hender det jeg trener for å få en avveksling. I helgene er det samme gamle rutine: snu døgnet på hodet, drikke vin eller øl med gode venner, le høyt og bekymringsløst, og gå på trynet i asfalten fordi det er glatt. Tilværelsen føles allerede ganske meningsløs, jeg er lei av mitt eget selskap, lei av monotonien, men jeg planlegger hyggelige ting (Tromsø-tur i mars, kanskje et par andre langhelgturer, Roskilde i sommer, drømmer om backpacking i Asia, fine kvelder) for å ha noe å se fram til i månedene med selvstendige studier. Jeg glemmer å dusje fordi jeg uansett ikke trenger å gå ut, jeg glemmer å spise fordi jeg uansett just sitting on my ass and fail to use up the energy from breaking bread I ate for breakfast, and when I eat I would end up with junk or crap or cardboard, so this summer I'm fat and certainly amiss. Now I complain bad, I realize it, but really, I have it pretty good, I look forward to being tasteful, I'm looking forward to leaving home, I look forward to the summer and I look forward to 6 degrees above zero this coming Saturday. When should I wear my skirt and tights too thin, too I'll regret it when the sun has gone down and it has been cold.